every post hurts more.

You have a boyfriend. You break up with him. Your best friend tells him she likes him. You find out and ask her. She admits to not planning on telling you. She gets pissed. She blames you.

Every post, story, conversation and joke you hear between the two cuts you deeper.

She says you don't get her life and how hard it is.
She doesn't know your brain is being squashed, and you might need brain surgery and might die in the process.
she doesn't care.

Windmill, Windmill, Far Away.

She said life's a waste of time, he said he'd waste it with her.

I can't say I'm perfect, I have my flaws, and I know some, others I'm oblivious to.

I know I am impatient, overly spontaneous, attention seeking, loud, over dramatic, sympathy seeking and I'm not too high up on the attractive-o-meter.

The only reason I know these things is through other people pointing them out. Sometimes it's a close friend, looking out for you, others; a deceptive 'friend'. It's funny how no matter who tells you it, you will believe it. What's funnier is that people will bass their lives around fixing it, just to please the other person.
There's a lot of reasons why people try to please others. Sometimes its for approval, other times its for pride. If you have to change yourself to please another person you're wasting your time.
You might have had many people you had to change to suit, and they left, because they hated the 'new you'. You wasted your time, lost a lot, and gained nothing.

One day you will find that person who you don't need to please, who loves you for who you are, and never want's you to change.
Until that day, you just have to look. If you don't change and they leave, they were never worth it in the first place.